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I · know · I'm · not · Perfect · but · I · can · Smile
and I hope that you see this heart behind my tired eyes...
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i'm bored and procrastinating so i have burgled this from Julie.... haha...
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Sugarcult - Worst to December | |
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ugh.... it doesn't feel like i'm actually back at school yet. even though i've had classes and everything. it just feels like i moved.... to a really crappy town. haha! i love being back with my sisters though. and i love my room. supposedly it's haunted, but i haven't experienced anything yet. ::shrug:: .....i want a bacon, egg and cheese sandwich.... yea, random. whatever. i don't really have anything else to say.
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Money - Pink Floyd | |
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i just don't understand how life can be so unreasonably cruel sometimes.
....it's just not right...
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i've neglected this thing long enough... plus i need to kill some time before i go to a party....
so yea, quick update: got a job at Victoria's Secret. not as bad as i thought it would be, but not that great either. i never EVER thought i'd say that i miss working in a restaurant. but hey, there's a cute boy who works there (and no, he's not gay) so i've been flirting with him. the summer's been going well. i'm having a lot of fun, just hanging out with friends and making lots of money (which isn't fun while i'm making it, but really fun when i get my paycheck!) the 4th was great! saw some fireworks, drank a little, smoked a lot, and fell asleep with Kacey watching The Adventures of Pete and Pete on her computer. life is good. =)
so yea.... i'm sure there is more stuff that i could write, but i'm too lazy to think of it and then write it down. hehe....
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So this week has been full of ups and downs. i don't really feel like talking about the downs though, but if i love you chances are you already know about the downs.
but anyway, today has been pretty good actually. i finished my last papers for this year, went to a waterfall and fell into the creek (haha.... that was fun and hilarious!!) and the thing i'm most proud of.... i got vice president of the Order of Omega!!!! score!!! i'm really excited about it, and i hope that i'll be able to help the order. it should be fun!
so yea... that's all i really wanna talk about.... oh and i'm coming home tomoro!!!! i cannot WAIT to get out of here....
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"But there is not enough time; There is no song I could sing and there is no combination of words I could say, but I will still tell you one thing; We're better together..."
i've been kinda neglecting this thing. guess i'm trying the whole not-posting-my-entire-life-on-livejourna l thing, and am being more private these days. but i feel like livejournal deserves a post, so here goes... life has been pretty good to me lately. it almost feels like it's saying 'oh shit.... i've been really horrible to her over the past year or so. i think she deserves something kinda nice.' me and the powers that be are on good terms right now. =) i have a busy month ahead of me. April is gonna be crazy.... first it's the dance company show and the sorority's run for CF... on the same day, of course. then a few days later starts Greek Week!! wicked excited about that, but we're all gonna be sooooo tired. but of course, the formal is the saturday after Greek Week.... which ends on a friday. go figure. then in the middle of the week right after formal, i turn 21!!! yay!!!! and the weekend after that is Alumni Weekend. ::breathes out:: i'm gonna be so tired of alcohol by the end of April, it won't even be funny. especially since the boys wanna take me out once i get home.... and i'm going down to Jenks at some point too. ...my tolerance level is gonna skyrocket.... so i think that's sufficent for a post. maybe you'll hear from me in another month or so.... "Flowers in my hair, little bitty hearts upon my cheek; Baby, you'll be on my mind 'till I kiss you next time..."
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1963 - Rachael Yamagata | |
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i'm in a good mood. things have picked up again, and even though i had to be up wicked early for a stupid conference, i was still out drinking with some lovely ladies the night before. =) i'm looking foward to this week -- RUSH!!!!! -- and this weekend i get to go home. i already have plans to go to a Valentine's Day party in New Brunswick, (got invited by a rocketman ::wink::) so that should be fun. and it'll be nice to see my friends and my family. i don't really have any big news, i just wanted to say, basically, that i'm happy. it happens rarely anymore, so i felt it needed to be documented. the end.
love, Christine.
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Roses and Butterflies - Making April | |
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In the past 48 hours, my life has gone from wonderful, to shit, and then back to wonderful again....
sometimes i forget how fickle life can be.
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The Burn - Matchbox 20 | |
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break was AMAZING!!! i wish it wasn't over..... i want, like, another week to continue a few things i started during break. but yea..... i'm back at school. ....joy....
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In My Head - Anna Nalick | |
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so it snowed tonight.... it was coming down lightly, and in large flakes. it was really pretty. and then i saw Megan's away message said that she was in the city and ended up connecting the two. New York would be so pretty with this kind of snow falling. someone has to come into the city with me when i get home, and go see the tree with me. and then just wander around the city. possibly take in a show, but it's been a while since i've just roamed the city and i want to do it again.... maybe when there's snow. anyway, one acts are finally over. so i have a little bit of my life back.... but not too much. that would infuriate the stress gods cuz i might not be stressed out enough. i dunno.... i still have a lot of work, papers, projects, presentations.... and yet, here i am, sitting on my computer, writing in an online journal. i should be working on something... or better yet, sleeping. oh well... it's late... i can do what i want with this time.
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Thinking About Tomorrow - Beth Orton | |
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so, yea.... i don't even really remember writing that last entry. but i did good! the only word i noticed as mispelled was Rutgers.... and even then the "t" is right next to the "r" anyway.... what a great weekend. i think it was just what i needed: to be at home with the people who i've known all my life, cheering for a team that i grew up with, in a town that's like my second home. haha.... it was awesome being in New Brunswick after they won. i don't think i've ever cared so much about a game in my entire life..... and when Ito missed the first field goal, i wanted to kill him just as much as the guys did. thank god for the penalty on Louisville. we definitely did celebrate all weekend. sometimes i wish that MCLA had a football team. but then i remember that even if we did, we probably wouldn't be ranked anything in the country. a team up here probably wouldn't even know what it was like to win anything, let alone be 9-0 and ranked 7th in the country!!!!!!!!! i'm still so proud of that. i wish i had a Rutgers shirt or something to wear up here. cuz i totally would. hahaha. in other news, my family got a puppy! a three-month-old beagle whom my sister named Penny Lane. she's a terror when she's awake, but she's adorable when she's sleepy. ok, more about that later. right now i have rehearsal.... yea, i know.... when do i NOT have rehearsal?
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Coffee - Copeland | |
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i'm drunk...... and Rutgets won the game against Louisville!!!! we (a 15th ranked) beat them (a 3rd ranked). New Brunswick was awesome last night! it was loud and crazy and.... i don't even know! FUN!!!!!!! and i was glad that i was there to celebrate with them all! i don't wanna come back to school.... |
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"You got your passion, you got your pride, but don't you know only fools are satisfied? Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true..."so i found a New Year's resolution. i know, it's kinda early, but i think this is one i have to work on keeping: i am not going to feel sorry for things i do anymore. if it's what i wanted, then too bad because i refuse to apologize for knowing what i wanted and getting it. and if anyone has a problem with that, tough. things have been happening in my life lately... not really going to get into detail, but they've made me decide to put things into perspective. of course, i had help from my girls. but to hell with feeling bad about doing what i want to do. "so i threw up my hands and said 'fuck it - if i can't fit into your mold, i'm gonna break it, and make a new one.'"
from now on, i'm only concerned with what i want. and in the words of my wonderful sisters: "i drink, i smoke, i have sex; it's my body, i do what i want!"so that's what i have to say about that. ::nods curtly:: "I may be going to hell in a bucket, babe, but at least I'm enjoying the ride."
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In life we do things; Some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads, but they all make us who we are. And in the end, those experiences shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn't be at the exact place that we are today. So just live. Make mistakes, and have wonderful times but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly, where it is that you are going...
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The Swiss Army Romance - Dashboard Confessional | |
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"All I know's I gotta be where my heart says I oughta be. It often makes no sense. In fact, I never understand these things I feel..."
so let's see.... this weekend was kinda fun. i went out and de-stressed on Friday. i was happily drunk for the entire night! wasn't ever sick or to drunk to walk or anything even remotely associated with continuous drinking. i'm not sure how i managed to pull that off, but i'm glad i did. cuz it was fun. i was happy that night, chilling with my brothers and sisters... then prof and i went on an excursion. we were on a mission to find quesadillas (or however you spell it...) it took us a while to actually walk down to x-tra mart, cuz we were wasted. but it was fun.
then, in an odd turn of events, i ended up walking with Chris, Pete, Brad, and some other people i had never met before to the Hoosac Tunnel. for those of you at home going "so?" this tunnel is big, creepy, and apparently extremely haunted. yea. and i walked there.... at night. it was kinda fun though. exhilarating... but still really creepy! i walked into the mouth of the tunnel once or twice and everytime, i got chills and was like "uh-uh... not going in anymore." but it was an adventure.... and now i can say i've been there. ::shrug::
anyway.... I'M COMING HOME THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!! friday night i hope to be out and about in good ol' Jersey, hanging with the home boys and girls. i cannot wait for this weekend. i can't even really write anymore about it, cuz i'll just get redundant. but i love the people i'm going home to (i love the people up here too though) and it makes me happy to know that they're just as excited for me to come home as i am. haha! and Becky and i already don't like some girl who may or may not show up at the boys' place.... and we don't even actually know her! but trust me.... we have our reasons to not want her around. ::looks devilish::
so yea... that's it. oh yea, and Cabaret auditions were today.... umm.... yea. probably the worst i've ever sung in my entire life. and i don't care what anyone said... it was awful. my best hope is that the two people who's pieces i wanted to be in already know how i sing. ::shrug:: whatever.... i hate being sick...
"Till I opened my eyes and walked out the door and the clouds came tumbling down. And it's bye-bye, goodbye, I tried. And I twisted it wrong just to make it right; Had to leave myself behind. I've been flying high all night. So come pick me up...I've landed..." |
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starting the night off with a shot of whiskey was probably not the best idea i've ever had...
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so i've been at school for almost 4 days and i still have yet to unpack my trunk of clothes. yea, i'm living out of a trunk. and i miss my friends from home a lot. ...and this bed still feels too big to sleep in alone... i wish the future would happen sooner...
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Video - Ben Folds Five | |
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i'm totally in Montreal...... and Kacey, Megan and i are about to go out to another bar and get drunk.... oh yea. you all wish you were here with me.... =P
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Montreal, Canada! |
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 already tipsy! |
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Gone-Switchfoot | |
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Th is is just too surreal...
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 i just don't know... |
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Never is a Promise - Fiona Apple | |
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so yesterday, after babysitting, i went with Dave to play roller hockey. yes, i said roller hockey. and no, i was not good at it. it was fun though. he was teaching me some things (like how to shoot, and skate backwards, neither of whcih i was able to do successfully) but we had a good time just skating around, passing the puck back and forth (cuz that i could do!) of course, now i'm ridiculously sore.... all over. my body hates my life right now and wants me dead cuz it would hurt less. haha... anyway, this past weekend was great. i saw Phantom of the Opera in the city with my mom, her friend Diana, and Dave, then wandered around for a bit after the show with Dave. we got lost in Central Park, then we took the subway back to 42 Street. yea, i actually rode the subway!!! go me!! haha.... anyway, we ended up over a Siggins' house (big surprise) and after trying to keep me awake until 4am, the boys finally let me fall asleep. me, Dave, David and Kathryn hit the beach on Sunday. it was awesome. absolutely beautiful. for dinner, we went to this buffet on 18, the East Grand Buffet. and this place had crab legs.... pounds and pounds of crab legs.... and between the 4 of us, i'm pretty sure we ate about ten crabs. haha.... we were a mess! but it was awesome. after that it was back to Siggins' to watch a little of a movie ("oh! we have to read?!?!?!") then it was back home to crash. all-in-all, a great weekend-slash-beginnning-of-week. but it's going to take me probably till September to recover from it. haha!
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